With my biblical studies degree in hand … I know, it seems odd to receive a college degree at age 70, but that’s what happened when God freed me to be myself.
Once out of college, books swirled in my head. One book about Christina Bell Cantor, a twenty-first century take on the allegorical classic Pilgrim’s Progress, took over a year to write the first draft.
After three trusted people I love reviewed it, and said, “It’s too dark, people don’t read allegory now-a-days, non-Christians won’t understand it, and maybe you should turn it into a novel,” I set it aside.
Shortly thereafter, the escalation of violence at home and abroad, the nasty political scene, and the immoral corruption going on in the world made me sadder each day.
Reflecting on the changes I saw in the world, I came to a startling conclusion. Our Christian faith is being lampooned on a daily basis, we can no longer assume that persons calling themselves Christians in the twenty-first century are living the faith as God intended. My writing helps me express my thoughts about humanity and the world. And because I lived much of my life in a paradox of fear and false bravado, it’s important for me to share how I escaped these two villainous soul crushers.
It’s not that fear and false bravado don’t follow me around anymore. At least now I recognize them as the sadistic slugs that they are. I’ve managed to reinvent my lifestyle by relying on God. By following God more closely and getting to know him more intimately, I find that he knows me better than I know myself. And yet he still chooses to love me unconditionally. The intimacy of our relationship provides me with a constant feeling of well being and worth, in spite of trials.
So, for me, it isn’t about religion, it’s about a relationship.
I look forward to sharing my thoughts and hearing yours.